Summary

I am currently facing a very difficult emotional state due to the excessive pressure I feel on my own, which has deeply affected my daily life and caused me to skip therapy sessions. Looking back on early December, I signed up for Apple Music, marking a shift toward feeling less guilty about my music choices compared to the traditional music platform. Although Spotify has improved quality recently, I have started treating my albums like new discoveries rather than just classics. I am now hearing the songs that I love most, including 'I'm Not Going To Be There Again' and many others. The lyrics I choose to listen to seem to change over time, and the flow of music feels more natural. I have also discovered that I can feel the songs through other people and even older musicians like Nena and The War On Drugs, which makes it easier for me to express these feelings. There is also a strong connection to the theme of the War On Drugs and a sense of queer identity. This music has even influenced how I interact with YouTube videos, where I feel I need to perform to be acknowledged by others.

topic: Emotional difficulty from internal pressure
topic: Decision to listen to music instead of traditional platforms

Title

Coffee And TV

Description

Coffee And TV

Keywords

music, dass, songs, video, player, song, sind, oder, cookies, apple

NS Lookup

A 85.13.141.144

Dates

Created 2026-03-14

Updated 2026-04-22

Summarized 2026-04-24